Getting Thrilled Again


I have been doing some more thinking about that poem with no name . I hope that I am getting better at trying to understand what it is telling us. That first stanza is very important to me. It seems so benign causing people to discard it as useless information. I just don’t believe it means nothing. There was something that bothered me about that stanza. Why would ff feel compelled to tell us he went alone ? Wouldn’t that be a given if , “Two people can keep a secret if one of them is dead.”?  I am taking this a different way.

The only things ff has ever told us was that the treasure was hidden in the Rocky Mountains north of Santa Fe. What if this first stanza is used to narrow down the area? Alone stands out. A stand alone mountain in the Rocky Mountains . He put it right there for us to see but we couldn’t see it for the simplicity of the poem.

I also believe the poem has a title but he didn’t put it out there because it would tell us exactly where to go. It’s a simple idea but complex and brilliant at the same time. I am hoping that I am finally starting to get a handle on how to solve this.  I hope others are also because even if I have the right idea, I may have the wrong area. (laughing at myself).

I am uncertain as to if we will be able to get out this year . My daughter has some major surgery coming up on May 11th and a second surgery on the 25th of May. She has had so many problems with medications , anesthesia , and antibiotics over the last few years. She is allergic to so many meds that we are running out of choices to use . It’s terrifying to see someone you love going into anaphylactic shock .My beautiful daughter deserves for things to go better for her. Hopefully these surgeries will allow her to have a more normal life once again. It’s tough watching her start all over again . Meg will be with us as long as she needs  and wants to be.

I am still watching over my mom and brother. Mom is still in her own home, for now. It’s her choice ,  as long as we can make it work. My brother has a form of dementia and is now in a nursing home. That’s the hardest part to see. He doesn’t understand anymore.  He isn’t capable of making decisions and I feel like his jailer but the alternative is he would be homeless and mentally ill on the streets of Albuquerque. That is not a good thing to be. It weighs heavy on me.

So maybe this year we will get out, I am hoping ! Only time will tell. I enjoy hearing what others are thinking and doing, it gets my mind off the tough stuff . So if you are reading this Forrest, yes I think about it all the time. Life just keeps getting in the way of my thoughts. Family always comes first, that’s forever. 🙂




2 thoughts on “Getting Thrilled Again

  1. Thank you Into. It’s good to hear from you and see that you are still around. I have worried about you, hey that’s what I do! I hope your life is getting better and you are finding some peace?

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